Time for greater authenticity in friendships.
Especially with females.
I understand we have sisterhood wounding.
And sometimes it's hard to get past.
But I no longer have space for fake friends.
Yes, I can feel you when you judge me.
Or flip flop between wanting to tear me down + cheer for me.
I can feel when your intentions for me are not the best.
And I notice when you say you'll be there for me,
But when it comes down to it,
I don't care if you talk about spirituality,
Or if your work is supporting women.
I can read through the lines,
Feel through your words.
I'm done pretending I cant,
And I'm done making excuses for you.
I can have compassion, because I know it can be hard to let down our walls sometimes.
But I will have to let you tear those walls down from afar.
And ask you to call me when you've processed.
Because I'm coming into a space where I am clear about what I'm worth,
And how I deserve to be treated.
There is a difference between seeing someone as my mirror,
Honouring my own shit,
And receiving triggers as medicine,
Letting someone in my field,
Who is not actually supporting me,
But pretending they are.
Thank you to my friends who unconditionally love and support me,
And are honest with me about where you're at.
Thank fully, there are quite a few of you,
And I'm grateful.
I am learning, growing, changing,
Once happy to let anyone in my field,
Now, letting nature and my intuition tell me who is good for me,
And who to let go of.
All this, said in loving boundaries,
From someone who used to have 0.