I don’t want to be another girl you compare yourself to
Or woman
Whichever term you prefer
Better than
Or less than
2 sides of the same pendulum
I want to be beyond that with you
I want you to know I live with shame in my veins
Crusty residue of a society ready to fall
I want you to know I long for the same things you do
For everlasting love + deep peace within
Sometimes I feel like I fall short in so many ways
But still I try, and live each day, aiming to be more me
More true
Just like you
I have days where I feel sexy as fuck
And groggy as fuck
I question my decisions
Over-analyze things I cannot change
Explode with joy
And crumble with pain
Whenever I post
I want you to feel my humanity
My genuine desire for connection
That underlies everything I do
I’m not perfect
I will piss you off
Make you question things
Delight you with my vulnerability
And maybe even shock you
With my defensiveness
I am made of blood and bones
Of stardust and thrones
And dear sister
I want you to know
That I know
You are made
Of those things
Too
I don’t want to be another girl you compare yourself to
Or woman
Whichever term you prefer
Better than
Or less than
2 sides of the same pendulum
I want to be beyond that with you