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This morning I had a dream.
After e-mailing one of my dear soul brothers (whom I haven't spoken to in months) --- he showed up in my dreamtime, along with his little family.
We were at some sort of convention or gathering that hundreds of people were attending, and I found Dave with his baby daughter I have yet to meet, and his beautiful partner. I knew I loved this child deeply from the moment she entered this world, and as I was not lucid in this dream, I truly believed I was wrapping my arms around her for the first time. As I held this little baby, deep tears, from a very deep place, welled up within me and poured out.
It was so good to see my beautiful soul friend and his baby, and as I explored the convention, I found more of my soul friends, all from my community in Calgary. I left a few years ago after a breakup + so I could be with the ocean, and live more deeply in nature.
As I saw them one by one, I felt happy, excited, and at peace. I felt deep emotions. And as dinner was being served at this convention, I went to sit down and get my plate... but I couldn't find my seat. All the seats were taken, and then, as I looked for all the beings whom I loved... I realized... I couldn't find any of them. They had disappeared. I knew they weren't there anymore.
Deep grief welled up within me, and my tears bridged the gap between the dream world and this reality.
I woke up crying, and opened my eyes to my bright yellow room, and a cloudy day. I was back.
I knew of course, why I had this dream. (Well I think I do anyway...)
To let go of some of the grief of not being present in my soul family's day-to-day lives. To let go of grief. To open that much further. And to become reminded of just how important it is to reach out.
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For anyone who has let themselves experience the depth of a true soul connection, you know the kind of depth that I'm talking about.
