Entering the pit of my own longing...

For years I have been aware of a longing so strong, that it surpasses words or explanation. A man triggered this in me, and for so long, I was certain that it was this particular man I longed for.

Thankfully he did not give me what I thought I wanted, and recently after a year of largely ignoring the situation, I have come to look at it head on and ask what is truly needed here.

And as such, I have been asked to deep dive into the pit of my own longing.

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My longing is for my inner beloved, it is for the throws of ecstatic bliss and alchemical magic that comes from inner union, when the Masculine and Feminine truly align, harmonize, and surrender into one another to become a sacred third... Union.

My ego mind resisted this truth for a long time. It is so much easier to long for someone outside of ourselves, and numb the pain of not getting it... Than to quest within and to honour that what we crave occurs on the inner planes.

The ego hates the answer that what we are looking for is within. it likes tangible. It likes a chase. And it likes drama.

I've had recurring dreams where I pursue a beloved for years now, and he is never available, always outside of my reach.

What I now see clearly is these dreams have been showing me that I have been carrying a story of being unworthy, of not being enough, of not meeting the mark in some way.

These stories have manifested in my external life in repeated rejection from the men that I truly love + see.

This rejection has forced me to own my own stories, and let them go.

What appears to be poison on the outside, is medicine on the inside, if we're willing to take the plunge.

I choose to step into the deep darkness of my own consciousness and claim my worthiness so I can meet and unify with my Inner Beloved.

He lives within me. This is the practice of the Ancient Mystery Schools of Ancient Egypt. To unify the polarities within us, and embody ecstatic sacred inner union.

Those who have activated this inner union radiate a power and presence that is hard to ignore.

And it is this sacred inner union that magnetizes a beloved in the physical realms that can meet our truest, deepest, darkest, lightest, and fullest wishes.

To the path...

I walk not for the outcome on the material plane...

But for the glory of that which resides on the inner...

To truth. 


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How to receive a message from Archangel Michael

Angels are real. That is now a fact in my life, and has been for some time! If you're with me on this, or you're still unsure but are willing to try to connect with them, because... like I used to say... "What could it hurt?" ... then let's go on an adventure! An adventure in how to receive a message from an angel.

For this reading, let's invoke Archangel Michael, who is a badass angel who already knows you intimately, whether you've been working with him or not!

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Steps on how to Receive a Message from Archangel Michael

*These are not definitive, everyone connects to Archangel Michael in different ways, but this is one process you can use that will get you started in our really foundational way

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Step 1  ~ Clear.

Clear out sugar, processed or heavy foods before you go in to ask for a message, they can interfere... much like static on a radio. Drink enough water. Honour your body temple ~ she's the conduit, the transmitter. Clear out distractions, and go somewhere you can be alone.

Step 2 ~ Ground.

Put your bare feet on Mother Earth while you breathe into your feet, exercise in a way you love, or visualize tree roots growing down into the Earth from your belly.

Step 3 ~ Breathe deeply, and enter into a meditative state,

with deep belly breathes and maybe some nice music to guide you.

Step 4 ~ Ask.

"Archangel Michael, please come to me now. I choose to work with you. What would you have me hear? I ask for a message from you." See Blue Violet Light pouring all around you. Into your cells and into your aura. Ask again. Breathe more Blue Violet light in. Stay here as long as you want.

Step 5 ~ Release.

Let go. Don't try to 'get' a message. Completely relax, and release. I've heard this be called the "Do Nothing Method" ~ the more pressure you put on yourself to receive a message, the more you push it away. {Kind of like dating ;) } Notice what you get. An image, a feeling, a thought. Anything that makes you feel good and just feels right, is your message from AA Michael.

Step 6 ~ Chill.

If you didn't receive anything specific, or you're unsure ~ don't worry. Ask Archangel Michael to keep giving you the message until you get it. Take note of your dreams, passages you read in books that give you chills, lyrics in songs that make you come alert, or really beautiful guidance a friend gives you... angels communicate in MANY ways, through MANY mediums.

If you want to go deeper, like WAY deeper, I invite you to join a free training on how to work with Archangel Michael and the Blue Violet Ray... we start this week and I'll show you how you can bring this angel into your daily life to experience miraculous transformation.

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Are feelings of "not-enoughness" getting you down?

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In the work that I do, I get the privilege of speaking to many people behind the scenes... I'm not sure how many readings and coaching sessions I have given at this point, but certainly to hundreds and hundreds of people, possibly a thousand.

With this, comes getting to know what's happening "behind the scenes". With my intention to hold safe space, many people tell me things they don't tell many of their friends.

And with this, I can most certainly say...

You are not alone.

Whatever struggle you're experiencing, whatever shadow in your soul is pushing you into psychosis, whatever wounds you have... you are not alone.

I speak to the people that seem to have it all.

I speak to the people that seem limitlessly confident.

I speak to the people who are wealthy and have successful businesses on the outside.

I speak to the people who have flawless photography.

And I hear them.

I hear their demons, their fears, their insecurities, their heart pain, their wounding.... I have the honour of knowing what's going on behind the scenes.

And though all of this information will stay forever confidential, what I've learned from it, will not.

We are more alike than we seem. 
Every single person is going through some sort of internal struggle. 
We all have times we don't feel good enough and compare. 
We all have dark nights of the soul.

And in this, we are unconditionally loved. It is my invitation for you, in this moment, to drop the comparing mind, if only just for this moment, and realize, how much is going on under the surface of the facade.

May we be brave enough to share our behind the scenes experiences so others don't feel so lonely. And may we be wise enough to see behind the scenes and know we are all one human heart, beating together.

No one is left behind.

I love you. 
Thank you for trusting me enough to share your depths. 
Thank you for your Spirit. 
Which is unconditionally loved, 
Held, 
And true.

Jailbreak into my dreams...

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Announce yourself unexpectedly

In my sleeping hours

For the thousandth time

Literally

 

I’ll push you away

As you do with me

But we both know

That will never work

 

Cosmic roots run too deep

But so does prejudice

And fear

In this earthly life

 

Whatever the lesson

The way to complete freedom

Show me

I surrender

 

Take me there Spirit

I am your willing participant

Unshackle the chains of attachment

Help me to plunge

Into the river of clarity


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Social Media Comparisons + Inside My Soul

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It's so easy to compare and compete
Matching up social media images
To perceived ideas of other's lives

But let me make it clear
As much as there is joy and purpose
Flowing through me
There is also a torrential downpour
Of collective pain
That stays with me
As I move around the world
Sleep in my cozy bed
And make food
For my body temple

And with this,
I open
To the work
Of transmuting

Part snake
Part mermaid
Part deep and dark
Part light and expansive
Everything exists within me


Demonize me
Or put me on a pedastal
But I'll always be
Just like you
A being
Who holds the entire Universe
Within


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Sister to Sister

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I don’t want to be another girl you compare yourself to

Or woman

Whichever term you prefer

 

Better than

Or less than

2 sides of the same pendulum

 

I want to be beyond that with you

I want you to know I live with shame in my veins

Crusty residue of a society ready to fall

 

I want you to know I long for the same things you do

For everlasting love + deep peace within

 

Sometimes I feel like I fall short in so many ways

But still I try, and live each day, aiming to be more me

More true

Just like you

 

I have days where I feel sexy as fuck

And groggy as fuck

 

I question my decisions

Over-analyze things I cannot change

Explode with joy

And crumble with pain

 

Whenever I post

I want you to feel my humanity

My genuine desire for connection

That underlies everything I do

 

I’m not perfect

I will piss you off

Make you question things

Delight you with my vulnerability

And maybe even shock you

With my defensiveness

 

I am made of blood and bones

Of stardust and thrones

And dear sister

I want you to know

 

That I know

You are made

Of those things

Too

 

I don’t want to be another girl you compare yourself to

Or woman

Whichever term you prefer

 

Better than

Or less than

2 sides of the same pendulum

 

I want to be beyond that with you


 

Sisterhood of the Mermaid Moon Pinspiration

Reds, turquoise, gold, black

Dolphins, roses, crowns, Queens

Vixens, blood, mermaids, Egypt

 

Sisterhood of the Mermaid Moon


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Visiting Atlantis Guided Meditation

Hey loves! I recorded this guided meditation to visit Atlantis and receive guidance for our deeper circle, Walking as Priestess... but I love it so much, I wanted to share it with you for free. Atlantis is an ancient society that resonated with crystals, dolphins, whales, turquoise water, white and gold. Many of lived there in past lives and gained great mastery as healers + Priestesses... 

 

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