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I used to have mild depression…this is how i healed it

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I used to have mild depression. For years, I would go in and out of these very lethargic states. Some days I would lie in my bed for much of the day - feeling sad, feeling pain, or often-times, just feeling numb and unmotivated.

I remember, once when I was teaching at a retreat in Bali, I told the facilitators that I felt 'it' coming on again... the dark hole. I was scared to go in it. I was scared it would eat me and I wouldn't come out again for a long time.

And that was the last time I felt that way.

Because instead of eating me, I ate it. I ate the shadow spaces, I ate my pain, by surrendering to it, and letting it move through me.

Since that day, many years ago, I've not experienced depression. Sad days, tough weeks, yes - but if you've experienced depression, you know that this ever-pervading state is more than just a sad day, or a tough week.

I credit healing my depression to the teachings of the Dark Goddess.

The aspect of the Divine Feminine, who teaches us to allow our pain, anger, and intense feelings, without judgement.

Often in spiritual circles, we are guided to "think positively" non-stop.

Many of us are starting to figure out that this can actually do more harm than good - as if we're suppressing our deeper emotions, we end up in a constant state of resistance - which actually worsens the depression and causes us to have big mood swings.

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Are we honouring the Dark Goddess? Or bypassing...

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"I just feel really agitated lately, since the Plant Medicine, Anytime someone is all in the "love everything" vibe, I just feel agitated."

"Me too," I echoed, chiming in, in solidarity, "Lately when people are like "Love, all is love, I love everyone and everything!", I'm like "I hate you", and then I think "Omg Beth!" - because that's so not me. I know it's just a process."

I felt a shift in the room.

Is hate a strong word? Yes. Was I in a healing workshop? Yes. But that's how I felt - how I'd been feeling. I didn't censor myself.

I was at a breathwork workshop, and we were at the end of the circle, sharing about our experiences and what we've been going through lately.

At the start of the journey, we were told - all emotions are welcome here, nothing is ugly, nothing is bad.

And yet, I could feel, from one person especially, sitting across from me, what I stated, was indeed 'wrong' or at least, very distasteful in some way. Some comments were then shared about what irritation is all about, or how to process it. The energy was - "Let's help you 'fix' this".

And this, my friends, is where we're at --- we talk about letting all emotions be OK, making space for them. Learning to love anger as we love light...

But we don't live it.

We don't embody it.

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Even me, as I left the workshop, I felt ashamed for sharing the potent energy inside of me. "I shouldn't have shared that, the space wasn't being held for me."

But even there, I caught myself, I was ashamed of my own powerful feelings. Thinking they must not be OK, if they triggered other people, by simply sharing them.

I had to breathe through those feelings for hours.

But sitting here now, I feel differently.

I have sacred rage inside of me.

And grief underneath that.

During a recent Plant Ceremony, I had a past life recall that was so intense, I could do nothing but cry like an animal, when it surfaced. I didn't even know I could make sounds like that.

And now, in the wake - yes I'm angry. Yes I have grief.

And yes, that's all OK. My soul has been through a lot. (Can you relate?)

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It's time the healing community learns the difference between being in a genuine space of love, and simply spiritual bypassing, floating in the higher chakras.

If you state you are in a deep vibration of love, but cower back and judge another who is not feeling the same way - you are not in a true space of love, you're in an unintegrated state.

If you state you are in a deep vibration of love, and feel your heart grow wider, your compassion growing deeper, as someone shares the nitty gritty of their darker depths - you ARE in a space of love.

Is it a touch arrogant for me to be defining when someone is genuinely in a space of love, and when they aren't?

Maybe.

But what feels real is this - As spiritual brothers and sisters, it's time to honour the Dark Goddess.

Not from our minds.
Not as a concept.

But from an embodied knowingness.

She is the crazy bitch who takes you in the night and throws you deep in the pit of your own fears, to wake you the fuck up.

She is the one who stands at the gateways between birth and death - yonis splitting open in blood and screams. Last breaths being taken as souls return to the Mystery.

She is the one with unending compassion and love, who guides you to see your own bullshit so you can be who you truly are.

And 99% of the time - she ain't pretty.

I pray we grow, together, to appreciate Her and hold space for Her.

To not cower in fear or judgement when She speaks, when She roars.

For I truly believe, it is in honouring Her, that we will restore this Earth to balance.

So my dear, 
I leave you with this,
I honour your darkness, 
I honour the shadow that inhabits it, 
And I honour the sacredness of the void that lives inside of you.

You are not too much, 
What is inside of you, is not too much,
For me.

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🐬 Download 3 free Dolphin Rose guided meditations, that I’ve created for you!

In these journeys, we’ll meditate with the dolphins and angels! First, you’ll activate your Pleiadian and Sirian starseed DNA, with the dolphins. Then, you’ll receive a healing from the Divine Feminine Archangels. And in the 3rd meditation, you’ll receive a powerful activation from the Blue Ray and Archangel Michael!

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Medicine of the Snake - Full Moon in Scorpio Guided Meditation with Kali-Ma

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🌹Happy Full Moon in Scorpio! What is Scorpio all about? 

In most traditions, even New Age ones, we honour White & Gold, cleanliness, the Divine from ABOVE, and Masculine energy (productive, direct, logical) --- above all else. Think of this as the white & gold snake.

While that aspect of us is rad, it is only half of the story... We are lovingly urged to honour the BLACK & RED energies coming from BELOW & WITHIN us. The FEMININE is rising, and Kali-Ma calls on us to embrace the black womb space from which we all originate. Sex, death, and transformation ya'll. 🌹Think of this as the black & red snake.

In order to step into sovereignty as we are destined to, we need to honour Spirit AND Soul, Light AND Dark, Masculine AND Feminine --- white AND black snakes!

Watch the video above to learn more and meditate with Kali-Ma and the Snake <3

She Told Me Not to Share My Work. This Was My Reply...

The other day I wrote a post about honouring your triggers as medicine, and not blaming the other person for your anger… instead… turning and looking within for the source of your pain. Seeing what deep wound that person has just triggered.

I invited the reader to really feel that wound deeply, as a way to heal it.

Well… of course the Universe… (and on my priestess path, we call this aspect of the Universe, the Dark Goddess) - asked me to walk my talk, and do this process deeply for myself, yet again! At the end of that post the other day, I included a simple not. “For more of my writing + free trainings, head to www.bethkatherine.com)

This was an invitation for anyone who resonated with that content to go deeper into that vibration. I am on a mission to awaken the priestesses and the elementals to their true nature, and I’ve created many free offerings, and from-the-soul writings, that I feel, will serve to help that transformation and awakening come about. <3

Today, I received 2 messages from 2 different moderators of the groups. Their request - “Stop putting your website at the bottom of the posts”

You can only share in a certain way, basically, no website, no invitation to go deeper.

The unfortunate (and fortunate) thing is — is that as a result of me offering a very simple and small invitation at the bottom of that post, for those who resonated, I had dozens and dozens of women show up in my inbox, my email, and in my private FB group - thanking me for my words and my message, and expressing they were very much looking forward to going deeper.

If I wouldn’t have posted my website, they would not have found the way to enter into this vibration more deeply. (A vibration they chose, and stated that worked for them)

As I received these messages… I was angry, I was triggered.

I started writing a post about it, but thank fully, something happened and I was navigated off the page, and my post was deleted.

The post that I was writing had not yet come from the space of self-responsibility that I am asking both myself, and others to step into.

The Universe had my back, the Dark Goddess asked me to go deeper.. and so it was, that I was invited to go out for a surf with a friend.

As I sat there in the ocean, I prayed… “Spirit, guide me to be responsible for what I am feeling. Guide me to what I need to deepen into”

And then I worked with the medicine of the snake… I ate my own pain. All the pain that I had wanted to project on these women.. “They are trying to silence me!” “They can’t handle my fierceness!” … I ate instead. I breathed the pain in. I literally consumed it into my being.

I have learned this pattern from nature. Poo and dead leaves are not a gross mess to the forest.. they are gold, that once assimilated, becomes valuable nutrient, and new growth.

Once I started breathing into my pain, and owning it, 2 realizations came up:

1) <3 I still do not fully own my truth.

Kali, the Hindu Goddess of creation and destruction, lives within me, and for many who do not fully understand her medicine, she comes off as a vengeful bitch. But what she’s actually doing is challenging you to see the parts of yourself you cling to… that are not actually you, that are not actually in alignment.

My truth is loud, and Kali often writhes in my belly, the slippery snake sliding around her neck, body, and more deeply into mine, intertwining us.

I am still not fully comfortable with her power. The world has demonized her. We can see this is the ways her sacred colours - red and black - are associated with hell and evil. We can see this in the way that Christianity turned woman, the snake, and pleasure into the root of why the world fell. And this energy permeates our culture, whether we’re aware of it our not.

The feedback I was receiving from the external, was mirroring a place in myself that does not fully own my truth. The part of me that is sacred of not being liked or understood, still has a little bit of a hold in me. This shadow was reflected.

2) I am empowered.

As soon as I spoke these words to myself, out there in the water, my whole being calmed and I felt whole.

Here is the reflection for the other now, for in every situation, a myriad or medicine can come through if we are open to it. Some for me, some for you.

On the same tangent of point #1… The shadow of sisterhood (and the shadow of all humans actually) —- still has issues with a woman being loud, proud and in her truth.

When women come to each other and say… “I am small, I am weak, please help me sisters.” - that sister usually receives a lot of support. Her position doesn't threaten our ego.. we can tend her and soothe her.

But when a women (and maybe that very same woman from before, now healed!) comes to the circle and says, I AM EMPOWERED, I own my truth, I challenge you to do the same, I have deep medicine to offer, I own I can serve you. I own I have medicine. I own I have purpose. I own my empowerment. I am whole. I do not need you to validate me.

Well… often times… we shudder. I cant help but think of this very same sentiment being expressed by my contemporary Sara Sophia Eisenman recently:

<3 “Maybe we can hold our sister when she is down, and that is good. A beginning. But can we hold her when she is rising, soaring, glowing, immense and kicking ass? Can we hold her and love her when she isn't "humble" but direct and successful and bold and beautiful as the sun? Can we love her when she doesn't kowtow, back down, defer or play small for our or anyone's comfort? Can we resist the urge to crush her and "bring her down to size," and secretly revel in her failures because it "serves her right"? Can we release the old specters of jealousy and gossip and unconscious desire to be more "beautiful," popular, admired? Can we honor and celebrate her shine and success as though it is our very own? That is where the real work of sisterhood lies, on the edge, today.” <3

Personally, in my FB group, I encourage women to share their work. I know how scary it is for so many of us to come out and speak out truths and share our medicine --- and so I feel that a sisterhood and a FB group, is the PERFECT place for people to get comfortable sharing and expressing.

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And so I say this to those who asked me to tone it down… Thank you for the trigger. TRULY! I am actually grateful. I am not just saying that.

I will continue to own my truth, and the shadow mirrors that just came to me, have now helped me deepen into that.

You can delete me from your groups, ban me from your posts, or what have you.

It won’t matter to me in this place of centre.
I will fall off and forget this, but I will come back.
Because I will still ROAR my truth, and it will be heard my whom it is meant to be heard by.

I will share my website because in my heart of hearts, all I want is to be of deep service to this planet.

I have found a pathway, in fact, many pathways, to wild self-expression, and a foundation of self-love, and worth… and my Goddess.. it would be disrespectful for me NOT to share it.

If a woman thinks, when she reads my post, and sees a small note about a website to go deeper… triggers her. If that makes her think I am trying to take advantage of someone, or in some way am not honouring my sisters… Well.. that is her mirror now. I am her trigger. Funny how that works, hey? She has her own work to do, I’m doing mine.

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I know in myself, why I created that website. And it wasn’t to toot my own horn, believe me, although my ego can still come in with misaligned pride for what I have created… really and truly overall.. my work, my writing… comes from that ROAR to awaken the tribe.
It comes from deep service.

I could die tomorrow, I want these channelings out, I want to them to be ingested by those they could serve.

And if you would like to censor that, if you would like to say it’s salesy or not in alignment,
Then that is just fine.
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I have an ocean to surf,
A truth to roar,
A heart to love,
And a planet to help awaken.
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And I will continue to do so, with or without your help.

Although in actuality, whether you offer support or resistance, that is help to me, with the medicine of the snake.

Much love always, thank you for the triggers. I will keep ingesting this medicine, ingesting my pain, until I can stand firmly in my I AM presence.. no apologies.

No buts.
Just me.
Just truth.
I walk the path to owning it.
And in this moment, I am.


Blessings.

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{Pinspiration} Faerie + Witch Magic

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Some pinspiration for your day... :) 

The themes, in this, for me are:

  • Dark Goddess

  • Magic

  • Kali

  • Inner Power

  • Self-Love

You can click on each picture for the full image. Enjoy! 
Ps. Thanks to all the artists, you are all incredible!

 

To see more inspiration,

visit my Pinterest!

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Love love!

xo Beth 

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Do You Embody Your Feminine? ~ Deepening Into Our Yin

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Hi loves!

I have a new video for you that is so deeply connected to my heart, & what I talk about in it could REALLY change your life if you're ready for it.

Embodying the feminine is a journey many of us are on ~ but do we really know what it means? And how do we do it?

When we honour our feminine, our yin, we:

  • Receive much more easily (this includes but is not limited to: love, help, money, miracles)
  • Feel more at peace
  • Feel aligned with our truths
  • And for many of us; feel activated in our purpose of bringing the Goddess back to the forefront

    Watch the video below to learn more + hear some personal musings from me as well:

Much love sisters!

Xo Beth